Nervous and anxious...

Two nights before my surgery and I can already feel my stomach twisting in knots. I'm more anxious and nervous than I imagined I would be. I'm paranoid that something might go wrong, or, even worse, my toes will turn out worse than they were before the surgery. I had a nightmare last night. In my nightmare the anesthesiologist kept trying to put me under, but the anesthesia wasn't working. Then I had a dream that I could see the entire procedure as it was happening. My doctor told me to call him if I started getting too anxious and nervous, but I'm not a very objective person to gauge my anxiety. To me it feels like I'm reasonably anxious, but my friend said, "you're so anxious that you'd think they were taking your heart out or something". Thanks for the sarcasm.

Is it normal to feel this much anxiety and paranoia over a "simple procedure"? I have never had surgery before and the thought of someone cutting into me kind of makes me skeeve (yes, skeeve).

I went and took a look at people's pictures from their recovery and the thought of looking down at my feet while they look like the aftermath of a brutal homicide attempt makes me wonder if my toes are really all that bad. Then I actually take off my sock (because I always wear socks no matter what) and I realize that even sutured and bloody toes with pins sticking out of them look better than these talons on their best day.

Two more nights. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep...sans the nightmares this time.